Month: April 2015

The Avengers: Age of Ultron [Spoilers]

Ahhhhhh…. What a day! 😀

This is the first time I’ve ever watched a movie at a cinema on my own. And you know what, it was actually pretty exciting and not bad at all! It was convenient and fun!

I got a free ticket when I signed up to Crown Signatures during the CNY festival (really to get free parking at the time, the ticket was a bonus!) I hadn’t used the ticket in so long and the due date was today. So I thought, “What the hey!” and set out to watch the Avengers because I didn’t want to waste a $20 ticket!

So after getting my wheels done (yes, I got new tyres finally, the old ones were soooo worn out it wasn’t funny) I set out to watch a movie. As I hadn’t had lunch yet and I didn’t have time to buy something else, I thought I’d get the hot dog at Village. The combo had way too much food! LARGE POPCORN! That I didn’t even get through 1 quarter of the box.

Anyway… the Avengers… after about 30 minutes of commercials and freaking 30 minutes of the people next to me chit chattering (rude), the movie started.

I’m a huge nerd for the Avengers franchise. Well, ok, for Thor and the Avengers. All the rest are… not linked together like these two movies are, always at the end.   (more…)

My Night Time Soups

I was feeling a little weird feeling inside my stomach and thought maybe it would go away… it wasn’t the strong pain feeling ones but more like the fleeting ones. But after a few good hours it didnt go away and then I heard the grumbling.

Ok so maybe it wasnt emotional emptiness that I was feeling but am actual physical needing fuel.

So as I sit with my continental cuppa soup, I write. Yes again.

I’ve been obsessed with WongFuProductions lately, mainly the Wongfu weekends. I’ve never been into wongfu even though I’ve heard of them and seen them in other YouTuber videos like on Ryan Higas channel and Just Kidding News. I think I was first really impressed by them when I saw their Lee Hom video… I saw this by chance when I was looking for a Lee Hom song that another singer parodied (a word?) (more…)

Umm Why Havent You Learned Yet!?

So Ive been reading my old blog and I will admit I skipped over a large portion of the crap I wrote in 2010 and 2011… Mate, Im glad Im not in that headspace anymore.

Anyway, I came across a story that I included in 2008 about a man fishing. I had forgotten about this story and maybe my 23 year old self knew that the 30 year old needed to read this one day.

So here goes:

One day a fisherman was lying on a beautiful beach, with his fishing pole propped up in the sand and his solitary line cast out into the sparkling blue surf. He was enjoying the warmth of the afternoon sun and the prospect of catching a fish.

About that time, a businessman came walking down the beach, trying to relieve some of the stress of his workday. He noticed the fisherman sitting on the beach and decided to find out why this fisherman was fishing instead of working harder to make a living for himself and his family.

“You aren’t going to catch many fish that way,” said the businessman to the fisherman. “You should be working rather than lying on the beach!”

When Fiction becomes Reality

I somehow came across this blogpost that got me thinking about this topic. The author, Phil Wang from WongFu Productions, wrote about love, relationships, “the one that got away” that sort of thing on his blog. Then he mentioned one thing that caught my attention because I have felt that way before – that relationships were the ones that never work out.

Interestingly, I have thought about this a few years ago and I think I’ve come to the conclusion that spending too much time watching korean dramas, asian dramas about loving someone that dies in the end, or someone that … dies in the end.. kinna got to me. All “romantic” songs are about relationships ending in some way. All “romance films” are about relationships that didn’t work or there was “too much trouble”. It’s as if the most “romantic” is actually meant to be painful and hard. Like, the hot and cold, problems, issues.. My fav rom-coms of all times: (more…)

The Vulnerabilities Of Life

These past few weeks have been really strange yet very interesting.

I dipped to the very lows and felt very much raw, open and vulnerable – like the feeling of being completely butt naked in front of everyone and showing them everything.

I came across a really important crossroad this month. The final realisation that I have indeed been a target of emotional abuse by a person with Narcissistic Personality Disorder and have been the living in a very empty and direction-less world. What I was left with was realising that for a very long time, almost 7 years, of my life, I was left floating on this thought that I had met someone really special and that person would always “save me”.

The reality, is that it’s not true.

Know what You are Good At – Sales Person Where Are You?

So quick update, I applied for the job. I didn’t get it and it was a quick upfront no because

1) Didn’t have as much experience as the others, and

2) I’m not as educated as the others

Damn that sucks. So I asked why I got a chance last time and said that it must’ve been luck. She answered that it wasn’t luck but that I was a fantastic facilitator. Very nice of her to say that.

Now I’m really…. I dunno.. not gutted… not sad.. not happy.. not anything. I guess, I’m feeling like I’m not smart enough and won’t be smart enough to get into that field. I’m already behind like 10 years of corporate experience. (more…)

Quick Update – Lots of Thoughts

Arghhh.. i keep not getting posts out on time and totally didnt do anything last week.

Good thing is that I have enjoyed spending time with friends and family and connecting with my boyfriend over monopoly deal over the weekend. OMG best game everr!!

That and i have been busy studying. So much so that I feel sick. Sick with anxieties and sick of feeling dumb. Lol man this business course is so challenging. Im used to fashion trends, social trends and human thought. Getting in the world of business is different. Accoubting has been the biggest headache and stretch! Just sitting there trying to plot out the numbers has driven me crazyyyy.

The assessment Im doing now is also a big of a challenge.

Then Tuesday i went to look at jobs on seek, for fun, i dont know. I woke up that day feeling like I wanted to live my life doing my business and then all of a sudden I see the dream job post another two openings – the same job and an entry level position.