I’m feeling exhausted and pretty overwhelmed.
One of the challenges of being an entrepreneur or (an aspiring entrepreneur) is having lots of things going on each day. Life would be easier if I had the one job. And it would be ok to have the one job with many projects, but having lots of different jobs – gets to you.
I’ve been reading the book “Daring Greatly” by Brene Brown, one of those books that you wait for for ages to be released. I bought it recently, read 7/8 of it with only one chapter left and wow, it’s really shifted many things in my life. For one, I stopped feeling shame or guilty for things that I havne’t made a mistake. I’m the kind of person that fears making other people upset or feel like a faulted someone else – I know I’m not the only one. I guess we feel a lot of empathy and sympathy for someone else and try our best to make them happy or “not sad” if that’s the only thing we can do.
In that, I’ve started to build my boundaries – say no. Look out for myself. Stand up for myself. It’s all too new and it’s feeling uncomfortable. I guess I have to sit with that.
So I’ve been up to lots of different things – coaching thing, networking thing, my women’s seminar thing, and recently got back into my fashion thing – both speaking and physical creation.
It’s been great. And I’m speaking to more creative people which is fantastic.
What I am now, is feeling exhausted. I haven’t slept well lately – bad patterns of sleeping really late, feeling my stomach hurt and then waking up relatively late and too exhausted to get out of bed.
I am feeling the pain from the gap of where I am to what I would like it to be to be even more painful. At the same time though, I am feeling more and more excited – that bubbly feeling like something is going to happen… anticipation.