Umm Why Havent You Learned Yet!?

So Ive been reading my old blog and I will admit I skipped over a large portion of the crap I wrote in 2010 and 2011… Mate, Im glad Im not in that headspace anymore.

Anyway, I came across a story that I included in 2008 about a man fishing. I had forgotten about this story and maybe my 23 year old self knew that the 30 year old needed to read this one day.

So here goes:

One day a fisherman was lying on a beautiful beach, with his fishing pole propped up in the sand and his solitary line cast out into the sparkling blue surf. He was enjoying the warmth of the afternoon sun and the prospect of catching a fish.

About that time, a businessman came walking down the beach, trying to relieve some of the stress of his workday. He noticed the fisherman sitting on the beach and decided to find out why this fisherman was fishing instead of working harder to make a living for himself and his family.

“You aren’t going to catch many fish that way,” said the businessman to the fisherman. “You should be working rather than lying on the beach!”

When Fiction becomes Reality

I somehow came across this blogpost that got me thinking about this topic. The author, Phil Wang from WongFu Productions, wrote about love, relationships, “the one that got away” that sort of thing on his blog. Then he mentioned one thing that caught my attention because I have felt that way before – that relationships were the ones that never work out.

Interestingly, I have thought about this a few years ago and I think I’ve come to the conclusion that spending too much time watching korean dramas, asian dramas about loving someone that dies in the end, or someone that … dies in the end.. kinna got to me. All “romantic” songs are about relationships ending in some way. All “romance films” are about relationships that didn’t work or there was “too much trouble”. It’s as if the most “romantic” is actually meant to be painful and hard. Like, the hot and cold, problems, issues.. My fav rom-coms of all times: (more…)

The Vulnerabilities Of Life

These past few weeks have been really strange yet very interesting.

I dipped to the very lows and felt very much raw, open and vulnerable – like the feeling of being completely butt naked in front of everyone and showing them everything.

I came across a really important crossroad this month. The final realisation that I have indeed been a target of emotional abuse by a person with Narcissistic Personality Disorder and have been the living in a very empty and direction-less world. What I was left with was realising that for a very long time, almost 7 years, of my life, I was left floating on this thought that I had met someone really special and that person would always “save me”.

The reality, is that it’s not true.

Know what You are Good At – Sales Person Where Are You?

So quick update, I applied for the job. I didn’t get it and it was a quick upfront no because

1) Didn’t have as much experience as the others, and

2) I’m not as educated as the others

Damn that sucks. So I asked why I got a chance last time and said that it must’ve been luck. She answered that it wasn’t luck but that I was a fantastic facilitator. Very nice of her to say that.

Now I’m really…. I dunno.. not gutted… not sad.. not happy.. not anything. I guess, I’m feeling like I’m not smart enough and won’t be smart enough to get into that field. I’m already behind like 10 years of corporate experience. (more…)

Quick Update – Lots of Thoughts

Arghhh.. i keep not getting posts out on time and totally didnt do anything last week.

Good thing is that I have enjoyed spending time with friends and family and connecting with my boyfriend over monopoly deal over the weekend. OMG best game everr!!

That and i have been busy studying. So much so that I feel sick. Sick with anxieties and sick of feeling dumb. Lol man this business course is so challenging. Im used to fashion trends, social trends and human thought. Getting in the world of business is different. Accoubting has been the biggest headache and stretch! Just sitting there trying to plot out the numbers has driven me crazyyyy.

The assessment Im doing now is also a big of a challenge.

Then Tuesday i went to look at jobs on seek, for fun, i dont know. I woke up that day feeling like I wanted to live my life doing my business and then all of a sudden I see the dream job post another two openings – the same job and an entry level position.

Ask For Help!

So I just jumped on my website about 10 minutes ago and it’s been so long since I last wrote a post… and to my surprise, BAM! 5 days ago I had like more than a thousand reads! Wow! Thank you!

In the last week I’ve been pretty busy putting things into perspective. I don’t know about you guys but the pain is getting too real to just ignore and hence the coaching and marketing and working at it to get things moving.

I ran the webinar last night on YouTube and Google Hangouts! I seriously think that maybe only 1 or 2 people showed up. lol (more…)

Reaching Out

So this week has been pretty interesting and also really cool. It’s like one of those really good weeks that I haven’t had for so long since 2012 when i did NLP.

At the start of the week i did my first small business victoria workshop with 7 ladies at Selby which was about 30 minutes from Dandenong. It was a very long drive and very windy as well well i went up the mountain. It was actually quite scary and I was really scared when driving up. I was almost going to vomit. I think  i was more scared of the drive than the workshop itself.

Anyway, so it was an amazing experience talking for 2 hours about Internet and social media and seo and all the good stuff that an IT specialist would know. The funny thing was i don’t have any qualifications in IT and it’s only because i’m such a geek that i got this gig. What i really enjoyed about this gig was that i was able to inspire the women to do more with their businesses online. It was so much fun.

Later on in the week i decided to reach out to some coaches and ask for help. I knew it was time to do something about where i was because i didn’t know where i was going and i couldn’t continue to stay in this position anymore. Within 10 minutes so many people approached me with help. Some actively coached me and asked me coaching questions and some offer to have coffee and some even asked if i wanted to attend their workshop. (more…)

Red Paw Paw March 2015 Unboxing and Review

Wow finally, the wait is over! Red Pawpaw has sent their first box in three months!

Red Pawpaw had decided to have a seasonal box instead of having a monthly box to allow for time to research and find new and better products to fill in the boxes. The result, a much long awaited box choca-block filled with all full sized goodies ranging from body wash to muesli, to rice, gravy, licorice, fresher, biscuits and tea (Red pawpaw have seriously stocked me up on tea, I don’t remember the last time I bought tea!)

Without even going through the products and doing a price breakdown, already I can tell you this box is worth way more than what we have paid for it ($5 for the box plus $7.50 postage). The nivea body wash and muesli combined is already around $10 – $14 if full-priced. (more…)

Fresh Off The Boat!

Did I stumble on a gem or what!

I was looking for something to watch the other day and decided to look at what was hot on Hulu. I think it’s the “trending” column or something and I came across a show called “Fresh off the Boat”. I clicked in and saw Kim Jong Ung from “The Interview” (Randall Park) and was like.. wow what’s this.

Click into the pilot episode and was hooked. (more…)