So it’s been quite a while since I’ve written a post. Where was I? I think the question should be, “where were you MENTALLY in the last few weeks?”
Truth, my mind was everywhere and nowhere at the same time. I was boggled down on that depression, I was bitching to the universe every morning about all aspects of life and just generally feeling like shit. Bitter, nasty and depressed shit.
So last week, I gave myself a challenge. I was not allowed to wake up and bitch and whine until I had breakfast. I don’t know about you, but when my body goes into starving mode, I think the stresses, the anxieties and everything amp up – because my body is also feeling stressed, “OMG, we don’t have fuel, we’re going to die”. Hence the same theory of why people say you shouldn’t starve yourself when on a diet because your body will restore more fats.
Anyway, moving on, I actually did start to feel better. I actually didn’t end up bitching and whining any more and generally felt better.
I don’t know what happened.. by Friday, I started to research on YouTube, “Stragey Consulting, Strategy planning process” and from that I ended up watching “Case Interviews, Case Study tips for McKinsey, BCG and Bain”. I clicked watch anyway. (more…)
It’s been a long while. I missed last weeks post because I was just too lazy to write something (even though I had a thought for a few posts).
In truth, I have kept myself pretty busy (well, as busy as possible) going here and there to meet people, interviews and getting out of the house when possible (even though I have been at home watching tv A LOT)
Feeling like I am Planning My Life
In the last few weeks, I have actually started to feel so much better about my life. I really do feel like I am getting out and about, talking to people, catching up and learning more about my options and opportunities. I also have NO SHAME and have spoke with lots of people to see if they have opportunities for work. NO SHAME!
I have turned down opportunities as well as being rejected from opportunities. Feels good to be in control of MY LIFE.
I have also spent the last week looking at courses to do. As per the last few posts, I have been wanting to do the MBA – get it over and done with. However, many people in the industry have told me not to saying that if it’s for credibility, in Australia, an MBA is not all that credible. (more…)
So I saw this article written on LinkedIn and I thought it was quite interesting and I shall do it too. The guy in the article wrote 12 career (or was it 21 career changes) that had led him to no where. I was thinking about the same idea with business ideas/adventures. I wish I saved the link to his article.
Why am I doing this you ask?
This week has been really weird. I was very low and very down. I felt very lost and felt like people hated me. In reality, I just hated me and I felt I had lost passion for life. Albeit eating really well this week, I still wasn’t feeling 100%. (more…)
What happened to the Red Pawpaw box?
I thought I’d just whip out a quick update before I get into a good article idea that I just got from LinkedIn.
I was actually looking forward to seeing the Red Pawpaw box this month and waited and waited for ever for it. I hadn’t seen it in a few weeks and normally they send it around the start of the month. So I checked my email and realised that (more…)
I didn’t get the dream job.
What a week of stress and anxiety.
I guess I’ll start with the start of the week. Monday was the day of the awaited group interview. I really went in there and just was myself. Participated in the group activity, follow instructions and allowed myself to be me. It was a pretty big group of about 21 people which was a surprise as I only thought that there will be about 6 people or maybe 12 at the most. I thought that they would have sifted through all the applicants – though, as they have said, there were A LOT of applicants and making it through thus far was already something special.
Anyway. After a few bits and bobs. I got a phone call later that night and I was through to the next round. I literally “YAYed” in my car! Super excited and felt so great about myself. I kinda had thoughts of how awesome I was and such an awesome team player. (more…)
I think it’s the tradition to do a highlight or recap of the year before New Years.
I was just saying to my friend that 2014 was a tough year. It was also a really expensive year. A year of realisations, lessons, changes and ends. Here is a list of memories, of up sides and down sides of the year that was and also a final thought of 2014.
They are not in order. I tried to put it in chronological order but it was too hard. I also tried to put them in “good” and “bad” but that was also too hard. Let’s just go with the flow??
So, here we go:
Merry Merry Christmas Folks!
Just a quick little message while my neighbours are still partying (at 1.02AM)
I think today is the only day of the year where it’s like.. Keep Partying!! Anyway, enjoy your lovely egg nog, christmas goodies, church, dancing, wine and wake up to a wonderful day of celebrations, food, presents, gifts and family and friends.
Here’s the lyrics of the 12 Days of Christmas (I honestly only just today realised what the lyrics were)
PS – A New Year Review Post will be up soon. In the meantime, what are your 2014 memories and what do you have in store for 2015 or any New Years resolutions??
Received the Violet Box for December 2014 a few days ago but only just got myself to sit down and do a quick blog review instead of a video review for this month.
Here is what is inside:
Opps, forgot to pop up the video for RedPawpaw December 2014 box.
Here’s the video: (more…)
Yo peeps, here’s a post with emojis to further illustrate my emotions.
Its been a long few weeks since I wrote anything. Yes, I have spent this time licking wounds. We had the Xmas party as well which was interesting. I’ll get to that in a sec.
I tried my best to keep positive in the last couple of weeks but it was hard. It was hard because a part of me knew it was the best thing to leave but the other part was still upset that it was me who left. After speaking with pretty much every female in the organisation, i realised that it was just me that was asked to leave. 👿
Anyway. I went xmas shopping last week, just to take the mind off me and put it into the spirit of giving. All day I had been thinking about the five stages of grief and where I was. I guess, as a way to help me understand why I was still feeling shit and where I was up to. Yes, control freak coming out. Finally when I got to Chadstone, I sat under the big starry installation outside of David Jones and googled the five stages of grief …
Five stages of Grief:
1. Surprise/shock/denial – yup, happened on the first day😯
2. Anger – yup, the day after. Lots of colourful name calling.😠
3. Bargaining – yup, right after name calling.:|
4. Depression – ahhh… here we are. Helplessness and hopelessness
5. Acceptance – not yet then.
It turns out that on that day I was in depression. 😣 (more…)