The More You Give, The More You Receive
Merry Christmas Everyone!
Wishing you all had a wonderful Christmas with your family and friends and that you enjoyed some shopping!
This year was the first time in a few years that I spent Christmas with family and we had a celebration. As my cousins’ have said, this year we’ve had the best food yet! 😀
Approaching Christmas, it wasn’t the greatest. I was nagging the car repairers and insurance company to get my car back to me before Christmas. So it took a lot of talking, asking questions and suggestions – Ok, firm speech, questioning and demands – just to get my car back. To my disappointment, the car came back alright, but it just didn’t feel right and there were things that were missing. Not a great start to Christmas!
I tried really hard – pushed aside the disappointment and downright sadness and just enjoyed being with my family.
I’ll be honest, I did feel a little blue this year. It’s not just because of the whole car incident, but it’s the difference between where I am this year and where I was last year.
I am a lot more happier where I am this year – last year I was made redundant – this year I was promoted.
What I’m a little sad about was that last year I wasn’t single and this year, I am. I try not to let these things get to me but the reality of thinking about New Years, got to me. What will I be doing?
And this is not a pity party. It’s just a wonder – is this the start to getting older, is this the start to investing in cats and going home and drinking wine while looking after my cats and my whole life is just talking about my cats? OMG nooooo!
To put things in perspective, my aunties have started to introduce girls to my older cousin (Male) and now they have started with me. Oh god.. the picture they showed me to ask how what I thought! OMG. Is that the standard that’s left for me now?
Should I not be picky, have standards and just go with whatever?
Fuck NOOOOO!! LOL 😀
After Christmas with the family, I went home to do some reflection, as you would leading up to New Years. And I realised that it was only this year that I understood the saying, “The more you give, the more you get in return”.
Perhaps it’s my narcissistic only-child spoilt-ness that people think I seem to have that has prohibited my understanding of generosity and giving. I used to think that giving is losing, it’s giving away something that was mine or is mine and that I would never see it again.
It got better when I got older and started to become close to my friends and giving became more of an expression of love for them because I knew they would do the same for me. So I guess, in some ways, giving became a recognised 50-50 approach where I knew my friends loved me and gave me things and that I would do the same.
As the years went on, after the years of personal development activities that I experienced, I heard the “Laws of Attraction” thing and the whole “The More you Give, the more your Receive” thing. I didn’t understand fully what it meant, I just understood that apparently, the more you give, the more you get.
I think that’s when I mistaken giving for giving-and-expecting-in-return. That if I gave a penny, I’d receive a penny. If I gave $50, then I would receive $50.
I know that gurus have said that what you get in return may not necessarily be of monetary value, but you get something positive back in other areas of your life – such as love, friendship or health.
But still, I didn’t understand it. I still thought of it as giving and expecting to receive – not expecting from anyone in particular, but expecting to receive it from the Universe.
Finally, after 31 years …
It was only this year, when I finally let go of the negative traits or people in my life, that I’m starting to understand this theory. As I was looking at the gifts I received, the memories, the situation and the people in my life, I realised that giving is giving wholeheartedly and giving without an expectation of receiving anything in return. The key here is receiving and not giving.
I think giving is based on you and how much you can give and what you want to give.
For me Christmas is always about giving – I feel good about having the ability to give and most importantly, having people to give gifts to. I appreciate the gifts I have no matter what it is. I also learnt appreciation and gratitude.
Is it sad that it took 31 years to understand these things? Like really really understand it?
Perhaps, it’s the whole holding on to negative thoughts, holding onto negative lifestyles and feeling forced and feeling like you’re not living your own life – maybe it’s these things that have obscured my thought and my understandings? Maybe..
Though, I know right in this minute, I’m still not so happy about this whole car-accident thing and am trying to find what the lesson to be learnt here is. I know people get into accidents. I know shit happens sometimes. But why now and oh, forgot to mention, my car had a flat tyre on the same side as the accident. Wow.
The Universe must really be trying to say something to me. What is the lesson?
Learn to be patient?
Learn to stand up for yourself?
Learn to be more mean?
Learn to rely on others and ask for help?
Learn to be closer to people and not be so independent all the fucking time?
Learn the after effects of an accident and grow the fuck up?
Learn to be happy you’re alive?
Learn to use public transport again?
LOL.. no idea…
Anyway… I just need to sort some things out on Tuesday and hopefully close this case with the car. It’s approaching New Year and I’ve been doing some serious thinking of 2016 – the goals I want to achieve, what I want to do and what challenges I want to face.